Wednesday, August 15, 2012

To Peter Pan


We're just two different people now 
We're not who we used to be 

and that breaks my heart
because before I knew
i can never live without you
you not being in my life felt like 
it was the end of it all

but now i go on with my daily routine
and you're not part of it.

Was it my fault?
Was it my fault that we lost what we had?
Or were you to blame 
for the turmoil of our relationship?
Maybe we both did something wrong

I don't know
We are not who we were a year ago
Its funny
look at how much have changed
in a span of months

are you happy?
I am, I think.

It feels weird
not having you by my side
Talking to me about everything
Telling me the things that happened to you on that day
or your evaluations of current events

It was entertaining to hear you spill out
every single detail

We don't do it now
We don't talk that much anymore
Sad
Will this be the ending of us?
You and me, are we done? 

There are moments where i hope not
but it might just be
Will you allow that?
Better question is, 
Will I be able to handle it?

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Broken Record

where are you my beloved?
did you sleep well?
have you eaten?
where are you my beloved?

I have to say
I might be going mad
You know why
I'm worried sick

I'm afraid
I'm afraid I might find you
In a way where I hope to God I don't
Please don't end up there

You are alone in your journey
to a place I know not
Facing danger without me
I'm sorry, my beloved friend

At night, I cannot sleep
When it is day time, I cannot eat
Like I said,
I'm worried sick

I can no longer concentrate
on what I'm doing and what I have to do
because maybe when I look up or turn around
I'll see the ghost of you

I'm terrified because maybe
and I pray it would stay "maybe"
I'll finally see you again
but not the same person I knew back then

I saw a broken record
by the side of the street
All I can say to myself is
"Please don't let it be like him."